I prayed for God to give me a single word about His character to focus on for this entire year. I expected something big and majestic and earthshaking. But the word that He gave me is not one of the words that is typically used to describe God:
Vulnerable – susceptible to physical or emotional attack or harm.
It’s a powerful thing to allow yourself to be vulnerable. It takes amazing strength. It takes a lot of guts. To step into something, knowing that you can be hurt, takes a whole lot of something that I don’t always have.
But it also allows you to love more deeply and more intimately than you can be if you are trying to protect yourself. When God created us, He set down His shield and left His heart exposed. Exposed to our taunts, to our apathy and to our lack of faith. The King of All Creation purposefully leaves Himself vulnerable to His creation. That is a big and majestic and earthshaking thing.
I have a feeling this year will open me up to some heartache, but I pray that God will use that to teach and mold me more into His image. I can’t say that I’m necessarily “excited” about the prospect of setting down my own shield and taking that risk. But I know that God “is close to the brokenhearted.” It’s something I’ve even written about before, but not in the sense of vulnerability being a character trait of God.